Happy Birthday Wendy!

I can't believe that She would have been 30 today!! Wendy just LOVED Halloween! Always was having some huge birthday bash! Who wouldn't?? The kids and I took some flowers to her grave today and a BAT balloon. They enjoy going to put flowers on her grave. They love to pick out the flowers all by themselves and buy cute things to leave for her. They talk about her, pray for her and sing songs to her all the time! They loved their Aunt Wendy! We all loved Wendy! She was so vibrant! So full of energy and life! I miss her. I remember her birthday before she passed away. Ronda and I wanted to take her out to dinner. We were so worried that she would flake on us.. .but to our surprise she didn't. Then, we both thought she would eat her dinner and then quickly have some reason to leave.. but, she didn't. She STAYED! and we just all talked and had such a good time together! I was so glad that we had that moment before she passed away. That was the last time I really had a good time and good conversation with her! I will always remember that night! Thanks for being such a great little sister Wendy! Love you and Miss you!

Happy 30th Birthday Wendy!!

Today Wendy would be 30. Knowing Wendy she would have had a huge big Birthday bash! She loved to have parties. I know we would have done something very special for her. Just doesn't seem special to go put flowers on her grave. I wish I could take her out for a nice dinner and spend some time together. I miss her sooooooo much. I remember how she did such special things for our birthdays. My last birthday with her, she took me shopping at Victorias Secret! She bought me a $50 bra!!! Yikes! I would never spend that much on one. She made pretty good money and was able to buy nice things like that for herself, but she wanted to share those nice things too. She was so sweet to spoil me that day. I just wish I could give her something today. Even if it was just a BIG HUG!!! I love you so much Wendy, and I hope you are celebrating today in some way. Halloween will always be in memory of you! I just can't wait to see you again.
Love, your big sister Ronda

Another Loss for the Carroll Family

It is with much sorrow that I write to tell you that our family has had yet another great loss. On Monday August 24th, my brother, David, passed away. He was 43 years old and leaves behind 5 children. He was recently diagnosed with kidney cancer. We thought and hoped that he would be with us longer, but that didn't happen. Although this is another tragic loss for our family, I know that we will get through this if we just lean on each other and all of our great friends whom we know are there to support us and listen whenever we need. I know that David is with our dear sister, Wendy right now. What a happy reunion they must have had! I am so glad they are with each other again! Thank you to our friends who have shown their love to us at this difficult time! Services will be on Tuesday, September 1st at 10am. Please let us know if you would like further information.

My First Christmas in Heaven- Poem

This poem, my mother found right about at Christmas time last year- Wendy's first Christmas in Heaven. It is a beautiful poem- and wanted to share it too....

"My First Christmas in Heaven"

I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below.
With lights like "Heaven's" stars reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so spectacular- please wipe away that tear.
For I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear.
But the sound of music cannot compare with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you the joy their voices bring.
For it is beyond description to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me. I see the pain inside your heart.
But I am not so far away, we really aren't apart.

So be happy for me, dear ones, you know I hold you dear.
And be glad I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I send you each a special gift from my heavenly home above.
I send you each a memory of my undying love.

After all, love is a gift more precious than pure gold.
It was always most important in the stories Jesus told.

Please love each other as the Father said to do.
For I cannot count the blessings or love He has for you.

So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away that tear.
Remember I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.


Our first Christmas without Wendy was definetly hard- and without Jewell. So much loss last year. This poem was really uplifting to read. I am sure that every year without her will seem a little easier. But, we will always miss her the same! Love you Woo!

My First Christmas in Heaven

Poem written by Keith D Carroll

With the moon set
I'll watch for your shadow
With the rising sun
I'll wait for your light

For the darkness cold
I wait for the warmth
With the lighted way
I'll see my path

Though you are in my thoughts
I miss you all the time
With every touch I feel
I'm reminded of you.

You're in my dreams,
You're in my heart
For every day, every minute,
I miss every part

The games you used to play
The words you used to say
I miss your face, your words,
Every single day.

I hope these letters, these words
Reach you afar
For wherever you are
I'll always know

You are here beside me
Heart, mind and all.

For my sister, Wendy
I'll love you always.

By Keith D Carroll

To my dear sister, Wendy- by Suzanne M Carroll Quillen

To my dear sister, Wendy:

As the days get longer
Our friendship grows stronger.
And as young as you may be
You'll always be the same kind of sister to me.

The cute little smile you used to give
Always gave me reason to live.
And the times we used to fight
Made me stay awake through all the night.

I've never told you face to face
But without you I could never find my place.
This place I find only comfort and happiness
And where I can leave behind the fear and sadness.

Dear little sister I wish you could see
Just how much you mean to me.
And when the world gets you down
I will never let you frown.

And when the problems may seem more than a few
Just remember that "I love you."

- Suzanne Carroll

(This was written years ago before Wendy passed)

"The Snow Falls" by David R. Carroll

"The Snow Falls"

Much is in the loss, the grief and the cause.
Too many tears to come down as rain,
too much feeling, unbearable pain.
The clouds too heavy to muster the mount,
unleash a flurry, a record account.

The snowflakes come falling and falling far more
for all to remember the power,
the wonder and the beauty once more.
For most, record snowfall for all to see.
For me I knew better, t'was my sister Wendy....

She loved the snow and also loved life
but saddest of all, was never a wife.
To all of the children she touched with her love,
she was white as an angel, a snowflake a dove.

By David R Carroll

Poems written for Wendy

I am finally putting on here the poems that were written for Wendy by various family members. They are all very special. I am not much of a poet myself- so it's nice that someone else was able to come up with these beautiful poems. I will enter them individually...

Another Dragonfly.....

Well, as many of you know I had my baby on April 1st. I was in the hospital room after the surgery (had a C-section) and was looking around. There was only one painting on the wall of a flower. It was a very nice painting actually. But, the more I looked at it, I thought that on the bottom of the painting was a wispy leaf of the flower on the bottom left hand corner with a bug on it. I ended up asking Donny what it really was... to my surprise- it was a dragonfly. Now, Wendy loved Dragonflies. And we like to think that Wendy has a small something to do with when these dragonflies pop into our lives at such strange times. It was just nice to know that It made me think of my little sister, who definetly would have come to see me at the hospital and welcomed her newest little nephew into the world and our family. Here is a picture of that corner of the painting.

Thinking of Wendy

So, I know that I am not the only one that thinks about Wendy all the time. I always think about the cute little looks she would give, or her laugh, or her ideas.... it just never stops. But, especially when there are those moments that are like- Wendy is letting me know she is here. Last night was my baby shower. As I was getting ready for the evening, I couldn't stop thinking about her and thinking that she is the reason I decided to have this baby and how she wouldn't have missed being there for anything. The night went on and it was a great night. So many friends and family showed their love and support for me! It was standing room only! But, no Wendy. But, I knew she was there in spirit. This morning, I had another Dr. appt. - going once a week now. When I got into my car this morning to leave, the radio was on and a song by evanessence was playing- one that reminded me of her. She would sing her heart out to that song! I couldn't help but smile, knowing that she was letting me know that she was thinking of me too. Then on the way home, again on the radio, there was a gal that called in for a request- and guess what her name was??? Wendy!!! Sometimes it's crazy the way things go. Wendy just isn't going to let any of us ever forget her! Just thought I would share! Love you woo!